Sunday, December 17, 2006
Hey what wrong with me…. All my negative thoughts is comin back…
First thing… O level…. Damn…. My sec 3 is an advantage for mi… subjects like SS… lose my note book.. how am I goin to study for O…. POA lehz…. All is tyco (by luck)
Then worry abt yun…. She also have negative thoughts too…
Ncc… everything … I don know…. Need to get this out … something is really not right
|icyken| 11:22 PM|
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Yoyo hi blog…
Oh hi… wass up….
Nah…. Jus happen to be bored at this pt of tym. Happen to come in.. happen to greet u
o.o oh well ok.. so how life??? Holi!!!!
Yeah yeah… diao.. so fast. Abt 2 weeks more. I will be chiongin my Os
Haha all the best….
Then how u and yor mo jo jo jo….?
Lol fine… 4month liao…
Icic….
So restless!!!!! no energy in me… cant focus
Focus what.,.. hey dude.. u pullin yor self too hard.. let go abit la.
Ummm I will take that into deep consideration. Ha
Whatever… work towards yor goal la
I wan to .. but so far I lose my goal… don think I can recover one.. maybe after O
Alamak…. Will be too late by then…
Then how… all I can do now is eat .. drink …. Sleep.. play .. anbs shit,..
Wa ka… stop yor shit la…
I know u don shit…
Oie… not happy ar….
Wow amazing… hahaha u cant shit.. hhahahaha jkjk… lax lax..
Hang out with friends la..
I wan to but they left liao… anyway.. thank them for being by my side when I do not need them
Diao…. What the fish…. Oh shit!!!
Wat shit..
I need to shit now… bb…
Amazing wor… u finally can shit…
|icyken| 10:21 PM|
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
wow... so long never post.... guess no one will come read.... time flies sia.... gone to so many places... been through so many things.... having a very good relation ship but very tired but don wanna let go....
don understand why i don let go... umm grow up liao... but really tired... the chosen one should be sweet.. very caring... will sometime act like kids... active.... like to share thing but not complain.... haha but jolie is totally diff from my dream gal... but i love her..
but why am i hopin her to be my dream gal... i tot gal all the same de? well don think so bahz.
is she forcing me out of her life? i don knoe.. it will be so nice if she share things with me.... hahhaa 4 months liao... when is the first tym she sms me askin me how am i... what am i doin....
ummm i don have any idea that she sms me b4.... maybe school work....ohya, she did... but is i ask for de.... hahaha.. so funni.... so helpless right.. call some one to show care.. heex...
but somehow... her care realli melt my heart,... no matter how cold she treat me... jsu one tiny care .. i can feel everything.. maybe that the reason why i hope to have more carefrom her...
she don show it often.. unless i ask from her.. but this make me feel that i force her to care her... weird..... talk abt weirld.... if u feel weird meetin me,.. then on meet... if u feel uneasy to see me.. let me know... i try to be yor online bf.... hahhaa..... out of my world.. i am not myslef.... where am i?
what will i e doin 10year down the road.... maybe road sweeper need a cert to sweep the floor...
wow... broke my record liao la... cry for 3 nights... also don know why... have that sour feelin in my heart.... hahaha
fun man... my eyes much more clean liao.... WHAT I WAN FROM MYSELF.... from u... from the world.... lost....
i am a sailor who lost the map and compass in the big ocean... everywhere is sharks... i can move on.... do i have to cross over to the light(meaning to die) or do i have to suffer.... hell and heaven .... choose.... choose now.... i cant even make up my mind. what a joke...
|icyken| 10:44 PM|
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
sian man... cannot use com at night. that the onli tym to communicate with u... furturemore i cannot go into blog but i can update..... i also blur.... hee....... tctc....
|icyken| 6:17 PM|
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
ummm, so sec 4 friends... endure for a while. O lvl goin to end soon liao.. but i am in china... hahaha.. end of suffering.. rmb to giv me yor notes ar.. haha. all the best
sorry that i misunderstand u.. realli sorry, i must learn to be more understanding . goin china for some biz trip??? lol hard to believe right. a teen doin biz... haha... somehow i go there learn lor... and goin ther eto study... 4h of flight... sian......
goin to miss one week of jump start program... so my sec3 friend plz gib me tuition after i come back.... will be leavin tml... evening... depart at 7..... then will be coming back on the 23nov. early morning around 3 or 4.... walao..... my dad don know how to book ticket de.... no la.. cos morning got thing to do what.. hahaha.....
in that 10 days... not onli i will learn biz skill... and also find the real me... i have lost myself.... gonna get back..... if not i feel so empty..... don like that feelin la..... so suck..... hope i can find u ...... goin to study sec 4 social,, sec 3 poa and sec 4 chem in china... hahaha...so fun.....
i will work and study to drain all my energy away..... then re charge them for a day.... woo hooo... cool right....
should i cut my hair.... like very long lehz... hahaha
la la la..... everyone take care..... need any stuff from china...... can let me know.. but no bag or clothes plz... i don know how to buy for myslef how to buy for u guys.... funny sia....
|icyken| 4:35 PM|
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why. i reali very tired liao... i know that u have yor porblem... i wan to help... but this one,.. i cant do much because is related to yor family.... u wan to be alone.... tell me... but don have to off yor hp.... what if something happen to u.... i will feel very happy huh... ask u to sms me whne u reac h home... i waited and waited like a bloody idiot.... no respone .. sms and call u... off yor hp... i went out look for u...
sorry, i should be more understanding,.. u have change alot liao... and u close yor world too long.. u don know how to show care to ppl. but basic caring lehz..... i was so freakin worry lor...
sorry to vent out here.... sorry.... i will learn to be more understanding.. i will change all.... or i should learn from u... off my hp and go missin.... to adapt u?
|icyken| 12:34 AM|
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
life is a piece of paper.... so... need to add in colour... what we do, feel, experience every second.
no matter is good or bad, why not we colour the paper with our favourite colour.
we human wants things to work in our own way however we do not know how to think about others.
if we think too much, it will end up being a pest to that person. so keep to a limit bahz... but hope others will do the same...
anyway.. i also donno what am i talkin abt.....
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|icyken| 11:47 PM|
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life is a piece of paper.... so... need to add in colour... what we do, feel, experience every second.
no matter is good or bad, why not we colour the paper with our favourite colour.
we human wants things to work in our own way however we do not know how to think about others.
if we think too much, it will end up being a pest to that person. so keep to a limit bahz... but hope others will do the same...
anyway.. i also donno what am i talkin abt.....
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|icyken| 11:47 PM|
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
i lost faith in NCC liao..... and also lost my self confident in leading. for the past 3 years.. we work so hard to get an award however now because of me... that it... no more.. haiz.... sorry guys i askin to much from you.. sorry... i am a attention seeker... i like to be popular..... so i next tym go there work... jkhow ar... i lost my direction of my life... 3 years ago.. i wanna sign on in aSAF... be the future parade commander for NDP/ however i don think i can... then i wan to be a teacher... PE teacher... but in singapore... cannot jus be PE// need to take one more.. so what can i take and being a teacher is not easy.... but i like to teach... is fun.... then i wan to be a counsellor... to help ppl in to solve their problem.. but i cant solve mine how to help oyther.... so my future is a blank piece of paper... i don know what to do... i also don wan to do biz... becsaudse i hate the competition there... so how .....without a goal in my life... my life is so empty.... so i feel as i am a zombie... without anyfeelin.. short term goal... just to score well for my O lvl.... since i retain... better get good score... if noyt i will never forgive myself...since i lost my goal... so i must make chance .. create my own chance... no matter what i wll score well. then have better chances to go in good poly or JC .. get into good courses and then find the real me.... where are u... i know you are some where in side.... i are not icy ken nor berseker ken..... u are jus a ken.... plz come out.... that the real me and a true world that belong to me... where are u.... plz bring me to you.... i will bring u out.... really feel like dying.... my fighting spirit is very low now... i onli wan to study to numb my self.... feelin so hopeless.... have to work very hard to make the impossible possible
|icyken| 9:00 PM|
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